thinking...... (yes again)

Had a few moments to myself last night to think alittle (wow been having alot of these again)

Am just thinking if I should do several things and curious how one thing is going to um work out.

I guess I shouldnt contemplate to much I mean if I beat myself up too much about one thing theres going to be nothing left for anyone else to right? :P then again I have been told I do beat my self up too often. (um maybe)

Also is it natural just to be scared of change I actually sat in bed last night pondering this. Or is it just when something feels right with a gut instinct or what ever is it even wise to go with this. I mean one choice that may seem right to you could just upset alot more close to you. Eck! so much to think about. With this it just feels like a loop and I wish I knew what I can do to fix/solve it. All I know is I love the feeling I get :) (and that should be all that matters right? or am I wrong there?!) I know its a decision I should have made years ago. Way before I moved up north anyway. This may need a bit more musing I guess.

Pipex

Oh yes my fave topic of Discussion right now in this house.

They struck again Last night and this morning THANK YOU pipex for the constant disconnection Really appreciated. Gimme me mac code NOW or I will be down Wales with the 1,000's of customers who ya have screwed with flame throwers. (Ok that wasnt a litteral threat but thats how Irate I am now)to be honnest I am all to willing to live without the internet for a while. At least till I sort this crap out. Annoying to say the very very least.