Depressed

Its been a while and not a fat lot has bloody changed.

Still deperesssed still the fact I feel trapped and the fact I seem to be closing the world out isnt doing me any favours at all. (hence the lack of facebook/twitter updates)

Acutually thinking that I want things to change I really do want to be happy again and right now even the smallest thing ticks me off and I cant do much about it! which again pisses me off even more.

Should I just go the way of a few people I know and sit with a bottle of wine every night (even though this I know isnt me)? or just pack everything up and run my gut is telling me to do the latter, Even though its gonna be hard but worth it. Even if it does take me back to Wolverhampton.

Also another thing that has gotten to me is freaking double standards. I got slated for streaming video off youtube as it was hogging the bandwith so I though yea ok thats fine and stopped. Heres the double standard we changed ISP to BT now I know this about BT they have a generous monthly GB limit but When the same person who complained about me streaming is downloading isnt that a bad case of double fucking standards or am I getting old.
To be honnest I hope bt do pull the plug will teach a lesson that is so damn needed!

On a tangent.

Jensen Button fucking amazing. Nice one about time after all these years you won it!!!